So bored :/

age: 19
birthday: April 25th
birth place: Rockledge
height: 5’4

firsts: 
is this your first pregnancy?: No
how did you find out you were pregnant?: Raven’s mom asked about it if we knew yet since we were kind of trying, and next thing I know we were out the door.
what kind of pregnancy test did you take?:First Response
how many?: 2
what were your first symptoms?: Nausea, food aversion, tired, and peeing alot
who did you tell first?: Obviously Raven and our parents.
who was with you when you found out?: Raven and his parents.
was baby planned?: Yes
when was baby conceived?: January 4th
how far were you when you found out?: 6 weeks?

my baby
due date: October 10th
do you know the sex?: Not yet
if so, boy or girl?:I’m saying its a boy lol, so is everyone else.
any names?: Boy’s name will be Landon and Girls name will be Molly
any ultrasounds?: Just one
have you heard the heartbeat?: Yes, thanks to Iris and her doppler!
baby ethnicity?: White&Spanish
who do you think baby will look like?: I dont know!
will baby have any siblings?: Yes
have you and dad felt baby move?: Not yet

miscellaneous 
did you have morning sickness?: Yes
did you have any cravings?: Yea random ones too.
did you have any mood swings?: Yes
are you a high risk pregnancy?: No
any complications?: No
formula or breastfeeding?:Breastfeeding
have you bought anything for baby yet?: Not yet
when did you start to show?: Seems like when I found out
how long could you wear your regular clothes?: I still can wear some shirts but not really my jeans
are you excited?: Yes
who will help with baby after their born?: Raven gets 10 days off then I think our parents will be taking turns 
what is your favorite thing about being pregnant?: I guess just knowing my baby is in there.. its a weird feeling
what is the worst thing about being pregnant? Peeing a lot and trying to get comfortable to sleep lol

any days you wish you weren’t pregnant?: When I walk up the stairs and cant catch my breath, but seriously no 
are you ready for baby?: Yes
how many kids do you want?: Three or four.

do you talk to your baby?: Sometimes even though it cant hear me
do you still feel attractive?:I have my days
do you like kids?: Yes
how far along are you now?: 14 weeks

14 weeks today!

Week 14 - At week 14, your baby is 3.4 inches and 1.5 ounces, he’s almost doubled in weight since last week. She/He’s probably sucking his thumb and wiggling his toes in there! Her/His kidneys are making urine, and his liver and spleen are doing their jobs too.

Gender: Don’t know yet! I’ll find out my birthday weekend!

Symptoms: Fatigue, sore boobs, itchy everything, super moody.

Maternity Clothes: A few!.

Weight: Went back up to 135.

Fetal Movement: None yet. 

Sleep: Horrible, as soon as I get comfy I have to wake up to pee.

Cravings: Watery fruits, bacon, beef jerky, potatoes.

Aversions: Any strong smell.

What you miss: Lunch meat sandwiches and being able to walk around without getting lightheaded or dizzy.

Best moment this week: I got to see my baby last tuesday, techinically its a week.

What I Look Forward To: Feeling my baby move.

Other Interesting Things about This Week: Nothing really:(

Time to vent.

There is a Facebook page for my uncle…I am beyond aggravated and just all together tired of my family on this subject. I love my uncle, I do, but he made the choices he did and like them or not we ALL have to live with them to this day. He lived with US, not my other uncle or my aunt or even my grandmother, because nobody else would want to put up with him, as evil as it sounds it is the truth! So my brothers and I are the ones that got to see my uncle high or drunk 98% of the time. We are the ones that couldn’t enjoy the crazy uncle everyone else did. No we got to deal with the crackhead girlfriend, their fights, being scared to death when he came home at 4 am through a window. The other 2% of the time though, it was great, we had our uncle that we could just laugh at while he made his smartass comments to someone or did something just so stupid you couldn’t help but laugh. My real last good memory of him when I know he wasn’t completely high or drunk was when he was still married to Shannon… Yeah it was THAT long ago. These people that sit here and try to be ‘supportive’ ? and try to be nice because you have to, no just don’t. I don’t want your sympathy or any other of your fake feelings. I have only three friends, THREE, that came by and basically HELPED me go through with it. So unless your name is Jessica Nuechter, Kaley Bradley, or Madison Fayer, I will not be really thankful. So to these people that “liked” the page, you are dumb, well except ONE, I don’t even speak to the people that liked it. And to my family that this is your only subject that is talked about at Easter, 4th of July, Thanksgiving, Christmas, or any random time we are all together , FIND A NEW SUBJECT. I don’t mean get over it or forget it because I am not at all trying to seem like that but it will be 5 years September 1st, On that day and Johns birthday are the appropriate time to talk about him. Not at times when you are giving thanks and supposed to be celebrating. In all honesty, my uncle is probably wherever he is yelling at you all and cussing. Do you honestly think John would want ALL of this? Billboards, all these shirts, and other things ? No! And thats why I really think you all don’t know him as good as you would like to say you do. JOHN WOULD HATE ALL OF THIS GOING ON FOR SOOOOOOOO LONG. I want the pathetic cowards that did this too as much as anyone else, and if I had the chance, you have no idea what I would do to Jamie since a lot of this, basically all of this is her fault. But God did this for a reason. And I just wish you all would see it, I wish you realize the good thing  about it. He’s somewhere where he isn’t hurting anymore to the point he has to run to drugs, he’s honestly BETTER OFF being gone. I don’t like it, I don’t like that my children will not grow up with the Uncle I had. The one that was my 2nd dad basically. The one that I knew if I was in any trouble or danger he would be there and the one I know he loved me so much. IT KILLS ME, that he isn’t around to be there to see any of us, to see how we grew up. How proud he would be of some of us. Because really he would be proud of us, he loved us all. But I just can’t take it anymore. I am trying so hard to move on, I am trying to leave his murder, his problems. I want to remember the good, and I just can’t when there are people that encourage this idiotic things we all know he would call us all a dumbass about. He would hate all of this. I want justice but guess what, Rockledge PD just SUCKS. In general, its a cold case, who cares right? Well too bad we all know who has did it, we know all the events thats caused it to happen, but will that bring him back? Will that give me the chance to hug him one more time? To take back my last words to him? NO! Its all in God’s hands and I just WISH you all could realize that..

I am sorry if you think this is all to bash my family but its really not, its all the feelings I have had since the day he has died, and if you disagree with anything good for you but this is how I feel. 

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